Friday, May 31, 2013

I am listening to the new Steve Martin and Edie Brickell song "Yes she did" and thinking about Shelby. Makes me think about my soon to be cousin. She was gonna marry Philip. I never got a chance to meet her. She was 19. Damn it. She had a 10 month old little man named Logan. I wish I had a chance to talk to her and tell her one thing...wait until tomorrow. Can you just wait? Can you? Because tomorrow will change. That is a sure thing. Everything changes in the morning. So no need to kill yourself...things will change. And if you have a good sister cousin, named Mel, maybe she can share what her grandma told her. She said pull yourself together, girl. You can get through these really tough nights. I did and damn it, Shelby, you can too. Why couldn't you just wait? 3 more weeks and you would have been married, could have met me and the other Driskill girls. We are a sweet loving family. If you had given us a little bit of a chance, maybe you could have pulled through. What you did was nothing. Nothing that any of us didn't do ourselves. We would have loved you just the same. You will haunt me. I will try to look after Logan. Promise. Cross my heart.